I am Exceptional

27 01 2010

Please watch the film first:

 

El moshkela akid mesh fel nas, el moshkela akid fik (the problem is not with the people, the problem has got to be with me). If you believe that then you better kill your self and get done with it!

I was watching an independent film at a culture center when those words were said. The film was called "Unclaimed" or (lam yostadal 3la 3enwan). It’s about a lonely middle aged man who had no friends and lived alone. He worked in a government office where had no friendly colleagues either and even people doing their affairs in the office he worked in didn’t go to his desk but headed to his colleagues. Nobody asked about him, cared how he was doing, called him, or even wrote to him. He felt depressed and started wondering for the reason.

He even started writing him self letters and mailing them to his address. The letters were returned to his work as Unclaimed. The more the letters the more the Unclaimed the more the depression. He decided to call himself and leave a message on the answering machine that always told him that he had no new messages but the number was out of service! He headed to his own street and building asking the people around for himself, but "nobody lives here with this name" or "never heard of him" came the answers.

That’s when he thought "the problem is not with the people, the problem had to be me" you might as well throw your self off the balcony! I always believed that there’s a critical point of return where a person shouldn’t let him self reach. Just before that point one should have a pause, a moment of silence then a blast for something crazy, something new, something cheerful that would make me feel there’s still hope. i should be myself, normal, my own normal, the normal that’s normal for me, away from stereotypes and standardizm. Hell no!

The problem is not with me. I cope with people the way they are and they should accept me the way i am and have the tolerance to live with me as i with them. But if you reach the point where you despise yourself and your life you will try to change, then you will try to change. The uncomfortable zone! You can’t live as other people just because the majority are like that. It’s not comfortable. You were not brought up like that, and you can’t change in days what was planted for years. You can’t go back either, because once you leave it in despise it despises you too. Rejects you when ever you come near it, and that’s where you feel lost in between.

The search for the soul.

Sit with yourself. Talk to her. Respect her, she deserves that, and she will respect you in return.

Know where you are. You can even write a list of demands. Give yourself time to find itself.

Now go out and start shopping. Shop for you list. Search for what you want and don’t let go till you find it. Go to new places where nobody "normal" would go that’s where you will find your match.

I AM HAPPY TO BE EXCEPTIONAL, HOW ARE YOU?

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4 responses

28 01 2010
Moodi

my appologies to anyone who accidently had to read this piece of crap!
I am really sorryyyyyyy

29 01 2010
Shadows

This is no crap!!!
enta sare2 el kalam da meneen? takalam!!!
its strange how studying can enlighten u in other ways not only in form of education but also in the way u precieve everything around you… studying and work always have that positive effect on me!
its been long since the last time i read a good post from you… you’ve changed.. to the better!

30 01 2010
Moodi

sar2o men dema3’y we law 3erfet enny a5atto we katabto hena hategry waraya bel shebsheb!!

30 01 2010
Cindeella

🙂 that’s deep
that’s enlightening
..
wow !
i read back your first post here and i read your posts now..

what a difference !

:)) you evolved ..

every bit of you

🙂 am proud that the people around me are exceptional,they know it and they love it 🙂

am exceptional too and i am proud of it .. (in a way) :))

great post 3la fkra

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