I am Exceptional

27 01 2010

Please watch the film first:

 

El moshkela akid mesh fel nas, el moshkela akid fik (the problem is not with the people, the problem has got to be with me). If you believe that then you better kill your self and get done with it!

I was watching an independent film at a culture center when those words were said. The film was called "Unclaimed" or (lam yostadal 3la 3enwan). It’s about a lonely middle aged man who had no friends and lived alone. He worked in a government office where had no friendly colleagues either and even people doing their affairs in the office he worked in didn’t go to his desk but headed to his colleagues. Nobody asked about him, cared how he was doing, called him, or even wrote to him. He felt depressed and started wondering for the reason.

He even started writing him self letters and mailing them to his address. The letters were returned to his work as Unclaimed. The more the letters the more the Unclaimed the more the depression. He decided to call himself and leave a message on the answering machine that always told him that he had no new messages but the number was out of service! He headed to his own street and building asking the people around for himself, but "nobody lives here with this name" or "never heard of him" came the answers.

That’s when he thought "the problem is not with the people, the problem had to be me" you might as well throw your self off the balcony! I always believed that there’s a critical point of return where a person shouldn’t let him self reach. Just before that point one should have a pause, a moment of silence then a blast for something crazy, something new, something cheerful that would make me feel there’s still hope. i should be myself, normal, my own normal, the normal that’s normal for me, away from stereotypes and standardizm. Hell no!

The problem is not with me. I cope with people the way they are and they should accept me the way i am and have the tolerance to live with me as i with them. But if you reach the point where you despise yourself and your life you will try to change, then you will try to change. The uncomfortable zone! You can’t live as other people just because the majority are like that. It’s not comfortable. You were not brought up like that, and you can’t change in days what was planted for years. You can’t go back either, because once you leave it in despise it despises you too. Rejects you when ever you come near it, and that’s where you feel lost in between.

The search for the soul.

Sit with yourself. Talk to her. Respect her, she deserves that, and she will respect you in return.

Know where you are. You can even write a list of demands. Give yourself time to find itself.

Now go out and start shopping. Shop for you list. Search for what you want and don’t let go till you find it. Go to new places where nobody "normal" would go that’s where you will find your match.

I AM HAPPY TO BE EXCEPTIONAL, HOW ARE YOU?

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Friends

17 09 2009


Rembrandts

I’ll Be There For You Lyrics

So no one told you life was gonna be this way

Your jobs a joke, you’re broke, your love life’s D.O.A.

It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear

And it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month,

or even your year

but..


I’ll be there for you

When the rain starts to pour

I’ll be there for you

Like I’ve been there before

I’ll be there for you

‘Cuz you’re there for me too…


You’re still in bed at ten

And work began at eight

You’ve burned your breakfast

So far… things are goin’ great


Your mother warned you there’d be days like these

Oh but she didn’t tell you when the world has brought

You down to your knees that…


I’ll be there for you

When the rain starts to pour

I’ll be there for you

Like I’ve been there before

I’ll be there for you

‘Cuz you’re there for me too…


No one could ever know me

No one could ever see me

Seems you’re the only one who knows

What it’s like to be me

Someone to face the day with

Make it through all the rest with

Someone I’ll always laugh with

Even at my worst I’m best with you, yeah


It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear

And it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month,

or even your year…


I’ll be there for you

When the rain starts to pour

I’ll be there for you

Like I’ve been there before

I’ll be there for you

‘Cuz you’re there for me too…


I’ll be there for you

I’ll be there for you

I’ll be there for you

‘Cuz you’re there for me too…

To all my good friends: Cinderella, Hassan, Rana, Ola, Ezz, Mohsen, Salem 🙂